If I had a dollar for everytime someone has given me some sort of grief over whatever, I'd be soooo rich I'd buy myself a property with electric fences away from everyone who just drives me to the point of me banging my head against the wall. I swear to GOD!
I'm so sick of everytime I work at my job, my body feels like it just shuts down I'm feel tired, my legs refuse to work, my arms are like noodles, (did i mention the giant blister on my heel and blisters all over my toes from WEARING FUCKING BOOTS! and a scrape on my leg that hurts pretty bad) and the people I work with specifically my cousin's and my brother. Say "You're not doing anything eheheheh! get out of here.!" When i'm trying to work as hard as I can just i'm badly coordinated, its hard to think and see straight. Is my body just broken? I really need to get away from the computer and my gaming, it's kinda destroying me................ Yeah that's never gonna fuckin happen, why? Because, I despise reality thats why and I need something to just entertain myself or some sort to escape my pain. (which is causing more pain) *sigh* I must have something wrong with me, but I have no cash and my parents don't have the means of paying for a psychiatrist, psychologist, or a fracking therapist.
I'm so sick of as well my parents getting on my case about my life, SO FUCKING WHAT THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANNA DO YET! IT'S SUMMER AFTER A LONG YEAR OF COLLEGE AND I HATED IT!!!
I know I dissapoint everyone of my friends and my watchers by me and my rantings or emotional breakdowns on here, but no this... I think writing my frustrations down is the best way to calm myself down, and able to solve my problems....